she works at the farmers markets so her job basically ends once october hits. instead of sticking around here, she wants to live somewhere cheaper. she’ll be back in the spring though.
last night my friend cass came over to make dinner with me and for the second night in a row she slept over. oh goodness, it has been SO nice!
she lives very close to me but we don’t always get to see each other that much. some weeks we see each other a bunch, sometimes we go weeks without hanging out. unfortunately, lately it has been more if the latter.
she is getting ready to leave seattle for the winter so i am hoping to squeeze a few more sleepovers in before she leaves because god, i am going to miss her like crazy. even though we don’t see each other every day it was nice to know if i ever needed her, she was just a mile away. we both moved here together and she has been my security blanket in a city that has occasionally been intimidating and unfriendly. not having her here is going to be so weird.
she told me she was moving pretty much the second i got to seattle [no, not exaggerating] and at the time I worried I was going to regret this whole moving thing. like, I would feel abandoned or stranded. a few months ago I had no idea what I would do without her here.
and yet, here we are, less than 3 months later and I am fine. i’m obviously sad she’s leaving but it’s not devastating [especially because she’s just going to oregon]. i love it here, i have friends, i feel [mostly] settled. and even though the city is still occasionally unfriendly and lonely i don’t need a security blanket anymore, i got this.
though to be fair, he talks about dates and has spoken about his ex in front of me before so…
oh and last night’s dinner party went swimmingly. it actually made me miss chicago and all my friends something fierce since dinner parties were a regular occurrence when i lived there. also, it made me miss having a kitchen with a full set of measuring cups, hand mixers and the like. seriously, living with these boys is weird.
dinner was at 7 but the crush came over at 5:45 to start cooking the gnocchi and we just kind of moved around the kitchen doing our thing. it was like the cooking equivalent of a silent pas de deux. though admittedly, it was weird that we weren’t really talking.
the unplanned guest who was foisted on me canceled two hours before [major pet peeve of mine right there] and my roommates ended up going out to dinner so we had way too much food. per the usual.
i made a kale caesar salad with homemade croutons, mussels in a spicy tomato sauce and the crush made gnocchi that did not taste good at all. i think he just made way too big of a batch [he was trying to get rid of a ton of potatoes] but man, i took one bite and was done. which is a shame because the slow roasted tomato and cabbage sauce he made to go over it was delicious. and since it was chip’s birthday i also made a german chocolate chip cake.
everyone said my food was delicious which of course felt really nice to hear. especially because i had previous bragged about my skills in the kitchen to the crush and worried i may have set the bar too high.
cass also came over and it was nice for her to get to hang out with my two closest friends in seattle. her schedule is so strange that she never really gets a chance to hang out with all of us. i think the crush was actually starting to think i had made her up!
she had met chip before a few months ago but it was her first time meeting the crush and it was interesting to have her point out all things i was completely oblivious to. the second the crush and chip left she was like so let’s talk about him. guys, this is why she is one of my closest friends, she just gets it :)
anyway, she said she immediately understood why i liked him and he is exactly the kinda guy she sees me with. she surprised me by saying there was a lot of sexual tension with us and pointed out he seemed jealous of my ex because when he came up the crush immediately started to pack up to leave. did not notice it at all but interesting.
we stayed up for several hours talking about a bunch of stuff and then had a sleepover which was nice because it gave us a chance to keep talking this morning.
i am supposed to run the new york marathon on november 2nd.
i say supposed to because i still haven’t decided whether to run the damn thing. i completed the requisite fundraising but my training has been haphazard at best and i haven’t bought a plane ticket or figured out where i am going to stay. y’know, minor details and whatnot.
i found out my favorite singer is going to be in seattle that weekend and i am so very tempted to skip the marathon to go see him with my friend + the crush. like, actually considering doing it. which probably sounds stupid as hell.
i keep trying to talk myself into this marathon, reminding myself it is a bucket list race, that if i was going to do it any year it would be this year, that i won’t regret finishing, it will be fun, jess is running it, halloween in new york blah blah blah.
but having a big dance party to one of my favorite singers and making out with my crush just sounds so much more appealing than slogging through 26.2 miles. especially because that option is much cheaper.
the whole reason i decided this was the year to race was because a friend of mine registered. but we haven’t even talked since i was home last so…
there will always be other marathons, there will always be other concerts and other boys.
maybe i’ll wait to make a decision until after my next long run.
it’s my friend’s birthday today [!] so last week i told him i was making dinner for the crush and invited him to join us
he had other plans and declined, only to text me yesterday morning saying his plans changed and asking if he could come. he also threw in an aside about not wanting to interrupt a romantic dinner date so i assured him nothing romantic is going on with the crush, we are merely friends. which is mostly true. i mean, my friend and i both slept over at the crush’s house the other night and only one of us ended up in his bed so i guess i understand his concern. but at the same time, nothing happened beyond sleeping so my point still stands.
anywhoo, what was originally supposed to be a quiet dinner for two has quickly spiraled into a dinner party with 5+ people. why the plus you ask, as opposed to a definitive number? because i am an idiot with poor communication skills.
i told my roommates i was having people over for dinner, mostly as an FYI kinda thing. but i think two of them thought i was inviting them to join us, which i most certainly was not.
maybe this logan thing explains my love life
deep thoughts for your tuesday
One minute, Devon Still was preparing for his 4-year-old daughter’s dance recital. The next, the Bengals defensive tackle was at a hospital, learning that she had cancer. Here is their heart-wrenching story and how others are rallying to help
i didn’t even make it past the first section before crying